If It Were

if it were physical I’d cut you off if it were mental I’d forget to remember you but I think this connection sees deeper than the tide of sun or the unluckiest tempest of the sea and though we’ve disagreed in levels of silence, decadent ignorance unpalatable by most conscious beings each time we found […]

trying

no woman but I’ve carried children infant dreams, youthful potential reckless if I sleep, potent going on my fifth sleepless night because everything I create with my hands I’ve seen with my third eye everything I love, I was loved by in my own mind I’ve been let down, and I’ve been scarred but blood […]

Desperation

Desperation, you’ve always had my back Motivation has never lacked For stamina, for stability, or for feast I’ve always run away from everyone So I can better appreciate anyone Through the understanding of myself, first My insecurities have delved deep into skin Turned it into concrete and left to dry I glide through the steaming […]

Falling Short

Sweat on my back attracts Biting bugs, lying amongst the thistles They sense I’m alive? Somebody knows something I don’t Or didn’t Cutting only bleeds you of temporary pain But there’s nothing to ease The immortal struggle Of being seen and yet unseen Loved yet wholly misunderstood Shouldn’t they know who I am? Should I? […]

To Do

Sit me down Close my eyes Let me sigh, let me die No Wait, don’t do that, just Tingle with my conscious Spark the ignition, then light it on fire Let me live and love, then hate myself For ever trying to be with you So sick of being so close, yet so far I’ll […]

Loathing

They say I don’t have many friends Because I’m weird Too odd to be included with us And though outsiders hardly put up a fuss To find out the source of grotesque hate Every time someone tries to stand for truth They’re shoved a heaping pile of revenge And told to eat hastily from a […]

Being Kept Alive

Surfing on waves of sin To find the gold at the end Of a world gone to hell and back And back again Sometimes the worst thing Is to do something They try to sell me diamond rings Ladies fake implants, and cash never ending But who’s getting big momma out the hood Why is […]

Your Hands

A separate body Is not yours to decide Fate It is, however, a consequence Of an action you chose Is it ever right to decide Who is allowed to live and die As if we ever earned the right of nature It seems, rather, that you exterminate (Yes, I must use such a powerful blow) […]

Questioning

I feel like I question myself more now Trying things they don’t seem to think matter I feel like the worst thing I can do sometimes Is nothing So I do something, anything, just to get myself Going Somewhere, the buttons line up And the smiles sign the dotted line I’m not very good at […]

Listening

Right corner of my eye There goes the lighting, the purple, striking There goes the light Of my life Tragically, I never thought she’d be with me Because I never thought I could last long With someone not named myself, I’m all I’ve ever had, and she, she’s had friends Take my family away from […]