Neither Writing Nor Rioting

Stop I’m talking to you Yes, the one who hasn’t said a word Who hasn’t raised his hand Hardly given the teacher a glance No, he’s not here. Not ever. He’s writing to a girl he hopes to meet From Ohio. Wisconsin. Or Massachusetts. Dreaming of a wonderful life together. Frolicking in the snow, and […]

Let’s Talk About Love

Let’s talk about love The familiarity of closeness Through the drum of devotion Beating mercilessly into the nights Full of mercy and grace From the gratitude to be in place To be in this place, with you Never further, never closer Always at the right place and time Beating my conscious daily Because you’re always […]

Left Alone With You

light takes off into the abyss of memory dusk and dawn forget how to behave and I’m left alone with you skin shivering from the warmth radiating from our veins deep green eyes are the lighthouse to the end of loneliness with you fresh scars spill old blood bonding ties become undone and bruises never […]

More Afraid Of “Yes” Than “No”?

I hate change. I wake up the same time: between 6-7am wear (basically) the same clothes: some combination of jeans, T shirt, and jeans eat the same food: eggplant wraps, sandwiches, fruits, salads, occasional fast food, donuts do the same thing: work, write, read, watch the news listen to the same music: Fall Out Boy, […]

Autism Awareness Month Post Eleven: Guys Are Supposed To Make The First Move, But What About Autistic Guys?

  In the normal world, it’s usually the guy that makes his interest in a partner known first. (At least, that’s how I was raised.) And I’m perfectly okay with that. The guy should call the girl first, and he should be the one to make arrangements for dates and the like. Feminists and New […]

Dear WordPress, I Start My First Job Today!

Today marks a HUGE milestone for me: The beginning of my very first job! After years of rejected applications and botched interviews, I didn’t think I’d get hired. But, that’s why God’s good. Just when you think you’ve failed, he opens a door and lifts you up. I came in two weeks ago, thinking I […]

Drowning In Aspergian Love On A Rain Soaked Hill

Standing on the highest hill, she never asked why we came I only mentioned sunset, how I could watch them again and again Rushing out the door, I had forgotten to check the forecast And standing in the open space, the sky became overcast I felt stupid for being so careless But she didn’t mind, […]

An Aspergians Thoughts On A Pageant And Old Memories

Biggest attraction of pageants? Not trophies. Or banners. Or crowns. It’s the girls. I mean, obviously, but I enjoy watching the pageant (despite my hatred of crowds and public places) becaus I get to see how personable people communicate and imteract with others. I don’t have to ask any questions. I can just sit back […]

An Aspergian’s Thoughts On His Fears

I wrote this while I was sitting at Westfield Mall in Annapolis, Maryland. As you’d expect from me, I hate malls because I hate crowds. There’s too many people, and there’s too much commotion. My family can’t stand it, because they expect me to shop and be functional, but when I get into a mall I […]

An Aspergian’s Thoughts On A Neurotypical World and Relationships

This is a difficult topic for me to talk about, mainly because it’s arguably the biggest problem for Aspergians. I’ve lost so many friends, and turned away an unknown amount, simply because of my aspergian tendencies. The lack of eye contact, the rigidness and awkward appearance in social situations, the fidgeting/hand flapping/excessive motions, and the […]