the love to give

maybe I am not who I thought I am what if I’m just a fiend desperate for thrill a predator who strikes just to see the kill struggle for air in the waning moments what if I’m no better than my father itching to feel something child abuse stripped me of nerves so I don’t […]

Her Fever Dream

eyes close flutter open in a wicked craze then close I am tired of living and why should I love again it is sent but not returned written and spoken but never kept inside lost in translation, there is no confirmation miserable silence and I wonder if I’m wasting my breath on someone who’s blind […]

Stop Putting Out, Give Out

When I stop putting out Will you stop coming back home My body’s more than a tunnel to him But to you, I’m simply a plate You eat your fill, then discard what you hate I hold my weight in my hands, am I ugly He adores my body, each shallow, every curve You hold […]

Being Kept Alive

Surfing on waves of sin To find the gold at the end Of a world gone to hell and back And back again Sometimes the worst thing Is to do something They try to sell me diamond rings Ladies fake implants, and cash never ending But who’s getting big momma out the hood Why is […]

What Comes Next

How could I know they would betray me All this time I thought we were inseparable All this time I thought we’d go to the end of line But that line has been drawn suddenly And it is here Where we must depart Going separate ways is in many ways foreign To someone who has […]

What Have You Done?

Clamped shut By the eternal darkness The moon turns away from my pathway Even starlight fails to reach my feet Hell sweeps up the dust of faded memories They take shape and taunt Today and tomorrow hide in the absence Of honesty, of purity, and of sanity Mind and body crumble, unable to evade The […]

Reluctance

Specks of dust Cloud the perimeter Sweeping the chaos to a corner The negligent, the sinister Standing behind my own bars Like a hardened criminal I try to stay positive but the blood stays cynical Symbiotic with my need to destroy Is the molting of a teenage boy Into half man, half beast Trudging on […]

Forget Me If You Dare

Sleep on me And forget I’m around I never meant much to you And I shouldn’t now But times are changing And the days are glaring You need the cool That I happen to be maintaining The end could be now, tomorrow Or never But until you look away from the horizon You’ll never know […]

Vessel Of Troubled Thoughts

The method of my madness Is the confidence in blackness In a meadow of white flowers Some roses, some saps In a forest of unintelligible raps Small, handcrafted lines don’t stand a chance And they never gave me one, no endorsement But with patience and practice I absorbed it Now wherever I go I pen […]

What Words Bring

I had to get rid of me To find Me The suicidal depressions And disappointment brewed From pornographic misconceptions The boiling, bawling anger I couldn’t control Tearing myself from the flesh I called home Descending into the valley, alone I couldn’t come out until I figured how Embrace my unique in a cookie cutter world […]