warehouse wishful work wills will into real grave early hours heaping helping of hurt if I must be up I might as well tell you how I feel 40 minutes you just watched for 40 minutes no intervention, no rush to justice but just us, watching you being attacked is it fun to be abused […]
Tag: depression
the love to give
maybe I am not who I thought I am what if I’m just a fiend desperate for thrill a predator who strikes just to see the kill struggle for air in the waning moments what if I’m no better than my father itching to feel something child abuse stripped me of nerves so I don’t […]
awaiting the punishment
I feel no heatI see no lightI hold no loveI sing no songI believe no truthI desire no tomorrowThere is bitterness withinI butter my bread with itevery time I take a breathThere is sickness deepinside my marrowBreak my neck and ingest itMy heart is always collapsedSo drink the blood and be filledWith everything I’ve tried […]
alien or old school
you can tellby the way the wind blowshow it curves and shudderseach mile traveled is additional uncertaintyyou can tellhow the ground moves when I breatheon edge, willing, and cautiouseach beat is a white flag unveiledyou can tellby the way humanity is so quick to partwhen with any other they would stand firmthat I was not […]
No One Asks If I’m Happy
Slow down Please, just stop Stop Stop Stop I’m not ready Don’t do that Don’t look at me I’m hideous now Thanks to you It happened so fast It’s been ten minutes Now ten years And now I’ve died Taking my secret to the grave
Take This To My Grave
Slow down Please, just stop Stop Stop Stop I’m not ready Don’t do that Don’t look at me I’m hideous now Thanks to you It happened so fast It’s been ten minutes Now ten years And now I’ve died Taking my secret to the grave
Tragedy
I’m Batman she declared eyes aloft towards heaven she knew not what the night would offer crime? vengeance? nay, she dismantles the balcony in search of freedom the aching hole within her that was never filled no matter how much blood she consumed her stomach was empty and her heart burned in the reality that […]
Totally (Not) Fine
the monotonous hum of mechanical fan cold air pricks bare skin illuminated by the grace of sunlight spiderling revealing, disease prohibiting sunlight there’s a cobweb to my right an old friend drops in to say hello only seven legs, unfortunately , and I wonder how he chooses to press on marvelous I take to the […]
Sweating
humidity gorges on the anxiety muscles lunge for the nearest bottle water, ice cold she reaches too, so bold now I’m frozen stiff it’s okay, she’ll leave just the others racing past as roadrunner in the desert I’m hot, I’m cold, I’m laughed at, I’m bold I see the future but dive deep in the […]
Her Fever Dream
eyes close flutter open in a wicked craze then close I am tired of living and why should I love again it is sent but not returned written and spoken but never kept inside lost in translation, there is no confirmation miserable silence and I wonder if I’m wasting my breath on someone who’s blind […]
Musings Of An Autistic Mind 