watching their tongues (I cut them out)

crawl out of my skin and watch me diethe soul is leaping, but my spirit is dryfailed to be quenched by sex and poetryto lay my heart to your lips, to feel the linesevery imaginable high left me lownow I’m lost in a sea of translation and hateof good gone bad gone evil gone suicidalnot […]

crazy, stupid hate

the death is like a knife to my lipsI beg to be taken but it runs too highthe bloodshot pools in my eyes readymy fingers grasp the edge of your throatfollow my heaving breaths to the end of timeI’m ready, I’m ready, I’m finally readybut the high is an emotional letdownand the door slams shutI’m […]

giving my body away

dig back the layerseach layer of pink skintill it turns to blue veinsthe richness of bloodflooding my nostrilsI stumbleand collapse to the floorcan you feel death knocking?I am ready to escapeweakness becomes my strengthI’m crawling towards the balconyhighway smog blinds my eyesthis vacation was supposed to helpnowI’ve been robbed and secludedleft with nothing butflaps of […]

go, die now

the world suffers and burnswith scars never endingI stand backand light another matchone day they’ll understandI may bethe key to ending your painor the scapegoat that begsfor moreyou never wanted to be so freeand I always wantedto be like youbut you laughed, you mockedso I will kill, I will chalk upevery last pint of bloodto […]

passive vengeance

memories droolall over my present statethe exit woundsstain what could bewhat wasis goneI try not to reanimatethe monsterchaos magic temptsI’d like to think I was powerfulinstead I am silentpassivetoo oftenrather than the absence of courageI suffer from the absence of carethey watched me sufferprolonged my tormentwhy should I save themthey’d let me dieso shall I

Final Rest

I think I’d like to die I think I’d welcome the cold stability Endless simplicity Tomorrow is always today Never wondering if I’ll be remembered Instead, forever forgotten Why does it take so much To have so little Just being and being gone Never back, I sleep in the black My last memory is resting […]

Did I Kill You (Again)

did I kill you again did I wrestle from you what you died to gain did I kill you again walking on eggshells, desperate not to hurt both of us are already broken in parts we’ve been beaten, failed experiments someone wanted us to become new instead we just became again I walk the nights […]

Tragedy

I’m Batman she declared eyes aloft towards heaven she knew not what the night would offer crime? vengeance? nay, she dismantles the balcony in search of freedom the aching hole within her that was never filled no matter how much blood she consumed her stomach was empty and her heart burned in the reality that […]

Totally (Not) Fine

the monotonous hum of mechanical fan cold air pricks bare skin illuminated by the grace of sunlight spiderling revealing, disease prohibiting sunlight there’s a cobweb to my right an old friend drops in to say hello only seven legs, unfortunately , and I wonder how he chooses to press on marvelous I take to the […]

Sweating

humidity gorges on the anxiety muscles lunge for the nearest bottle water, ice cold she reaches too, so bold now I’m frozen stiff it’s okay, she’ll leave just the others racing past as roadrunner in the desert I’m hot, I’m cold, I’m laughed at, I’m bold I see the future but dive deep in the […]