so I guess we can record rape, but not actually intervene?

warehouse wishful work wills will into real grave early hours heaping helping of hurt if I must be up I might as well tell you how I feel 40 minutes you just watched for 40 minutes no intervention, no rush to justice but just us, watching you being attacked is it fun to be abused […]

sadness becomes sickness

gee fuck, I actually liked you somehow, my brain turned on I made jokes, I smiled when you do I touched your hand, my nerves rang mad something inside me flipped on I got to kiss you, kissing you daily we made out in a thunderstorm I was so mad with fever I never once […]

Her Fever Dream

eyes close flutter open in a wicked craze then close I am tired of living and why should I love again it is sent but not returned written and spoken but never kept inside lost in translation, there is no confirmation miserable silence and I wonder if I’m wasting my breath on someone who’s blind […]

Stop Putting Out, Give Out

When I stop putting out Will you stop coming back home My body’s more than a tunnel to him But to you, I’m simply a plate You eat your fill, then discard what you hate I hold my weight in my hands, am I ugly He adores my body, each shallow, every curve You hold […]

Don’t Call Me

Don’t call me strong; cracked glass eyes Shatter into a stream of blood Tears fill the creek where we swam There was a time long ago, before the shade And shallow, I’d listen to you talk Glide on the tips of maple The water, the water, always more crystal Tomorrow Love echoed through the trees […]

Loathing

They say I don’t have many friends Because I’m weird Too odd to be included with us And though outsiders hardly put up a fuss To find out the source of grotesque hate Every time someone tries to stand for truth They’re shoved a heaping pile of revenge And told to eat hastily from a […]

Being Kept Alive

Surfing on waves of sin To find the gold at the end Of a world gone to hell and back And back again Sometimes the worst thing Is to do something They try to sell me diamond rings Ladies fake implants, and cash never ending But who’s getting big momma out the hood Why is […]

A Heart Growing Darker

Two Advil on the countertop Jack underneath my pillow Hardcore synced to the TV And a few tattered verses stuck to the wall The sun shines too brightly My alarm blares too suddenly And everyone is asking me questions The bus ride is empty but I huddle in a corner Please god don’t let any […]

Deepest, Darkness Essence

Never mind the doubters on the outside I can hardly withstand the onslaught Of tremors in my head, the reminders All the things I’ve done and said wrong And each little nugget I tried to ignore It call comes back, it comes back to destroy Confidence, control, it’s laid to waste so fast I truly […]

On My Back

I carry my demons on my back Disguised as friends of my own mind I carry devils dressed as my lovers My exes, and my accomplices I carry vicious memories dazzled in delight When I was young, bad seemed glorious I etched my name through the victorious Misgivings of misdeeds for attention For some reason […]