hating you more than I hate myself

I am darkness, I am discomfort wrestling with your insecurity and fantasy aren’t they both the same? you worry about tomorrow because you’re insecure about today so you dream of one better even if reality dictates a more harsh tone now down your throat comes a train roaring ahead with pain and sickness plenty you’d […]

what’s underneath you

you think I see you clearly I just see what’s under your skirt pardon me for being crude but I’m just not interested in the story who listens to mine? if you want to ride then you know the drill otherwise, keep walking and snicker away whatever you’re saying I’ve already heard my mind cussed […]

attracting what I am

I’m just so broken, I attract broken people and when I’m inside them we feel like one but then they leave me and I’m alone until we happen to be just broken enough that she thinks I’ll fit this time I love voracious, I love till I bleed because I have too much left over […]

feeling cold on summer days

why did she ever leave the first time and what of the new guy? I had so many questions but she had the best answer “I’ll see you next time” I pulled my pants back on threw some water in my face I think I’m alive again that, or this is all a Dream and […]

lost in my head

but of course that’s not how it goes shit, she blocked me several times found a boyfriend, told me to get lost what we had was dead and forever gone I broke down, slurred the strangers the bar kicked me out, said I was belligerent all I want is for somebody to fuck me for […]

feel you inside mine

and I see now that you’re crying out let me lick you dry inside and out because you need it we need each other, for one night to feel human the candle we light gives us hope that maybe someone else likes us and sends us on a path much clearer than the one we’ve […]

isn’t it funny

isn’t it funny no wait it’s not he’s so much smaller but you go home to him so who’s the beta now? dick fucking hell I just sent her money again no matter she’ll give it back after she hangs out with her other guy the one in her bio the one she posts about […]

sadness becomes sickness

gee fuck, I actually liked you somehow, my brain turned on I made jokes, I smiled when you do I touched your hand, my nerves rang mad something inside me flipped on I got to kiss you, kissing you daily we made out in a thunderstorm I was so mad with fever I never once […]

an accident

I’d pour myself another cup another watered down memory a token of our lust and forget a chance at a memory and resuscitation swirl the dark brown contents feel the amber taste on my tongue the house of memories you used to call home now I’m renting several scars and a burn I just want […]

the other side of this breath

the long wait between breaths spells disaster or discovery I could have a found a new road to recovery shining streets of light and a song that lasts past eternity or a deeper chasm in which in fall forget I was falling and call home the brush stroke of relief is it heavy, labored, and […]