Stopping, And You

godammit I’m supposed to be sleeping but it’s 3am, and I’m lying in bed staring at your pictures the next moment, the next memory stalled over my head like a bad storm and my clothes you’ve worn, my heart you’ve pulled at till I was sure it was torn but I just keep coming back …

reckless

Walk into my kitchen, see what I can make Take these childhood memories And mix them with countertop liquor Throw some adolescent love in between You’ll get the fucking mess that is me Depressed and closed up, I don’t express well Social outings, suicidal game of show and tell I try to be normal but …

alone 🥺

Leave me alone No, seriously Leave me alone I didn’t ask to be put in this body But here I am, and my emotions stay crawling Burrowing and buried underneath the tears Broken hearted, still drawing I just want your attention Tell me that you’re near, tell me that you care I’ll keep writing until …

run

Listen to my demons They tell me to run away I have so much to offer the world Why must my home be the grave Repetition so there’s not a word I’m missin’ Tryna plug my ears so I do not listen Steal the knife out my hand So that there’s no ascension The devil’s …

Falling Apart

Stuck to my ways, my miserable Self-depreciating, grossly intoxicating Ways That I could muster up the strength And be normal, be human, functional Was always a mirage in everyone’s mind I’m unhinged, AS-IS door from IKEA Ruined by trauma, obsessed with reliving it Is the only way I’ll ever feel alive Nobody understands why I’d …

Boldness

To be brave Bravery Is in the eye of the beholder The heart of the recipient And the hands of the underserved Finally seeing justice tilt her scales Towards the cold and dying Or so we were told What if bravery Is just as important to the farmer As it is the seed? Wouldn’t that …

Inside

Do you remember me Do you remember me now The laughs we had, or the pain we shared Our fathers never treated us right So we looked for men in our lives Who would Could It’s not easy bearing the burden of youth Who, while valiant and inspired, were poisoned By the one meant to …

I Will

Glowing shadows piqued interest To no avail were we satisfied We’re another vessel, this is just another war You are nothing more Than history’s measuring stick Stretching from footprints in mud That we still don’t comprehend To a race of people no longer in chains But hardly free from a system whose revisions Stiffened the …

Far Away

Why’d you call When you know I wouldn’t Where did you get off thinking What were we, to either of us Who did you tell I only come once in a blue moon But when I do, it’s because I needed you Not for us, but because I Am Cold And Lost And honestly, quite …

Distain For Life

Corner of the mouth is bleeding I can read your words, but unable to find The feeling, the gripping distain for my life My mind, it is angry But never, ever with you The sun goes down on it everyday And though I apologize it haunts me still Greater than anything I’ve ever penned For …