So Little

Sleeping

But hardly rested

The night is too long

For a troubled soul to endure

I rise in the early hours

And contemplate

I feel safe in the arms of solitude

For it hears me, and asks why I do

Regardless of wrong or right

Nobody else does

Nobody else will even try

Sometimes I wonder if I’m ever to be loved

Merely tolerated in this present state

I am surrounded by bodies

But cared for by nobody

They want my body, not the mind that comes with it

They want my inside, without seeing that it makes the outside

They want me, but not me

And that is an unshakable burden

Who knew a heart had so little value

Who knew a soul could be so empty

In the face of all that I have battled

It is this that closes my eyes

And puts me to rest forever