I want to make friends, I really want to
but my insides want to fight it
bouncing between shy
and silent
you can’t ever say you’ve been this low
until you’ve tried it
They come, they go
they talk for hours
but they’ll never know
I just can’t say it
I don’t know how
I didn’t tomorrow, and I won’t now
Rather they make assumptions
and forget my existence
or let them know the truth
and the questions be endless
They don’t talk to me
and I usually don’t mind
but tonight I’m crying, I want to join in some time
I’m bland, I’m a bore
I don’t have any friends or the latest gossip
and I write poems at an age where writing is a chore
I’m getting older
and I feel like I’m running out of time
This condition, the control
this life, is it really mine?
When you want to reach out
but your brain says no
that’s the first sign
that it’s time to go
I want to try
and live another day
hoping that once, just once
the nod will roll my way
but if not
then I’m all too ready
to tie the knot
Me too, only you said it beautifully. ❤
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Thank you 🙂
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Not bland or a bore, never. I hope you find your people and/or find it possible to join in.
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Your words are always an encouragement, Beth. Thank you 🙂
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When you get the nod, can your brain be stopped from saying ‘no’?
We taught our elementary students to keep extending the ‘nod’, because one of these times the ‘nod’ will be received because the brain is ready.
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That’s great advice, Jasper. I’ll keep this in mind when writing that piece for you.
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In working to integrate student ‘A’ who is on the autism spectrum, we told the other students to regular extend an invitation to include student ‘A’. We told the students to not take a lack of response or acknowledgment from student ‘A’ as a rebuff but simply her way of saying she was not ready. It took about 6 months to have a sense of trust develop where student ‘A’ was able to respond and join in.
The challenge for the teacher was knowing whether her efforts were being properly directed. It’s hard to know whether a lack of response or acknowledgement from student ‘A’ was because the teacher’s approach was not appropriate or whether student ‘A’ was not ready to accept.
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That’s really interesting. I’ve never heard of that being done.
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The nod will roll your way my friend….. trust in it…
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Appreciate the encouragement 🙂
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Hold on tight and ride out the storm which believe it or not will not last forever(unlike death which is forever)…The wheel always turns
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Great words Stevie. Thank you 🙂
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So so sad…. Brianna was looking forward to your call. That’s why I had her answer the phone tonight. You are never a bother to us sweet Devereaux. Please call tomorrow if you can.
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She was? 🙂 Sorry about calling during dinner. I really wasn’t thinking. I’m not sure I can call today.
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She always does… 😉 Don’t feel bad about it, how would you even know…. 🙂 If that happens next time, just call her back in about 15 min. She doesn’t take that long to eat. 😉
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I hate letting people down, that’s all.
Do you cook a lot?
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I understand… 😉 I cook everyday, we rarely ever eat out.
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Well that’s good 🙂
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Yes, and we always eat dinner together as a family, and every night we choose somebody to come up with a random question that we all have to answer. It’s fun going around the table and hearing everyone’s answers. 😉
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Your family sounds like a lot of fun
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Well, we really only have each other, so we try. 😉
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Well that’s the heart of family 🙂
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Indeed… ❤️
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Good for you guys 🙂
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Brianna’s been working hard on her blog. Not sure if she’s done with her first blog post yet, but she was working on it earlier.
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It looks like it. I can tell she’s into anime and stuff like that, which is fine, and it adds a nice touch to everything. Tell her she’s done a great job.
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Yes, well she draws anime too and eventually wants to draw her own cover picture for her page.
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That’s pretty darn awesome.
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I think so! 😉
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I’ve got a post I want to send to you, by the way.
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One to feature?
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Yes.
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