Desperation Underneath The Ink Of Humility


As the wind blows

ripping fast across my back

I think of light, near and far

and a call to come home

It’s nearly eight

not too late

but I feel the urge to write

and call to come home

I’m here, alone

like you normally find me

If you kept a calendar, you’d always know

that I’ve always wanted to go home

As the twinkling dots amass in size

I close my eyes

and forget the time

that I wanted to go home

The fading, in and out

keeps me locked in wonder of their whereabouts

and I forget I wanted to go home

Lost in a forest

of thick brush

and emotional peaks and pits

Troubled thoughts

from suffering from your pyramid scheme

I’m dizzy

please tell me this is a dream

Freezing water

laps behind me

and as the wind grows fiercer

I tighten my jacket around me

I do a lot of weird stuff

but I had to come here

at this day, at this time

to let you know

that I’m coming home


15 thoughts on “Desperation Underneath The Ink Of Humility

  1. Hi, Devereaux. I hopped here from Diana’s Sunday Blog Share of your post.

    I enjoyed the poem and particularly found myself stopping to consider “suffering from your pyramid scheme.” I’ve never before now seen or heard anyone compare interpersonal dynamics to a pyramid scheme; and whether or not I arrived at the same conclusions you did when you wrote it, I did come up with some interesting considerations.

    And that’s what good poetry is all about.


      1. Well, here are a few:

        1. Most pyramid schemes rely on “big personalities” who seem to believe in and encourage the people below them; but in the end, it’s really only manipulation to stay with it, because of the residual benefits the person at the top receives. It’s insincere flattery for the purpose of self-gain.

        2. In that way, when a person lower on the pyramid scheme decides not to be part of that venture anymore (i.e., to do what the person higher than him wants him to do), the relationship stops. All the smiles and encouragement and calls suddenly end. In other words, the relationship is completely conditional.

        3. In a pyramid scheme, the goal of the people higher up is to eventually do nothing β€” to make a living from the fact that everyone else other than that person will do the work. It’s quid pro quo that becomes codependent and, in the last stage, entirely leeching.

        I see parallels to each of these in real relationships more often than I wish were true.

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