Since my collegiate disaster, I’ve been feeling better. I’ve got a job interview on Wednesday, and I’m inching closer towards finishing my GED preparation. Given the results of my poll, I’m going to start posting my paintings/artwork from my weekly WAMTAC (Walters Art Museum Teen Art Council) meetings along with poetry. Despite the general content, I’m still me. Still the awkward, Aspie me. My WAMTAC meetings have been going better recently, but I’m still overly self-conscious of my mishaps. Numerous times I start a sentence, get nervous, and then drop the sentence. They probably think I’m stupid. Anyway, this poem is a collection of all the feelings and hopes I’ve had while I’ve been gone the last couple of days.
Dark night
tiny fright
just leave me alone tonight
tiny wish
and a crazy bitch
just leave me alone tonight
scribbled dreams
and an imaginary scene
just leave me alone tonight
broken dad
makes mom sad
just leave me alone tonight
alone at home
with wordpress emails filling up my phone
giving you an Aspergers tour
so I get a lot of Mystery Blogger Awards
just leave me alone tonight
The Chiefs blew another division title
it feels like the franchise is stuck in idle
just leave me alone tonight
Tyler, Sydney, and Tricie
They don’t miss me
just leave me alone tonight
Fall Out Boy
motivating this boy
just leave me alone tonight
I love good food
but I eat more than I should
just leave me alone tonight
Hero is Ben Affleck
just like Christian, autistic tendencies make me snap
I don’t mind volunteering
but people’s eyes, damn always peering
just leave me alone tonight
Dreams are just dreams
still staring at those too tight jeans
just leave me alone tonight
I have no friends
so to you, I press send
just leave me alone tonight
I hold this knife
to cleanse the strife
I’m gone tonight
Musings Of An Autistic Mind 
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Glad you feel better. When you get your GED you can jump right back into college. My son was in several social awareness groups at different times growing up. Different places offer them. Maybe you can find one in your city. They really helped him figure out how to better understand the social cues people give. Of course, it’s still something he struggles with but his learning helped him work through making friends and not saying things so easily that would upset people.
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I’m glad you’re feeling a bit better and that some things seem to be going well. Sorry I didn’t leave you alone 🙂 But then it is morning now. Have a wonderful day, Devereaux.
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I’m glad too.
And you can always hit me up. 🙂
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Will do.
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