No backstory, just one of the hardest poems I’ve ever written 😦
Every day
is a battle for unclaimed ground
and most times
the anguish of defeat
is the only sound heard
Every night
I try to hold on to inches
the struggle, the fight
sometimes lasts a sentence
my heartbeat
that faded away a long time ago
unresponsive to love
even a smile, I barely know
every breath is a snow day
trapped inside
poisoned lungs
a chemical romance
between fear and anxiety bred
from failed relationships
you don’t her face
you never heard her laugh
you don’t why her leaving
broke me
made me crash
I flew through twin towers
addiction with conviction
every breath lost
I gained in moments
breathing harder
I went back farther
every climax
brought her back
don’t tell me
what to do
faced with that kind
of lost love
you’d do it too
I ever had anyone
to call friend
until she pressed send
and since
the dents in this titanium heart
are more visible
than ever before
once more, I open this door
let in the rushing wind
and bitter winter air
I deserve it
yes, it’s only fair
she’ll punish me
every time I try to win her back
but she’s too far away
and I’ve fallen inside
the black
I took a chance
a dare
didn’t know
where I was going
far away from home
into an unknown
guided by
an invisible hand
I was treated to a brief stay
we came close
so close
I wished to stay by her side
to love her, call her mine
the time felt right
thought I was old enough
knew what I was doing
little did I realize, I wasn’t the one doing the choosing
we split apart
for unknown reasons
you could ask the seasons
you could ask the sky
but they won’t tell me why
I hate myself
throwing away a beautiful girl
stupid me
stupid me
I haven’t come close since
I haven’t even tried
scared to lose another
my tendencies, I can’t smother
Loss is painful
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Very true 😦
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Is it ok to ask the artist what you meant when titling this “An Asbergian’s Chemical Romance?” Is that because the love was toxic? And the breakup was so hard? It’s one a my favorite poems that I’ve read of yours so far. Although I do like the dark ones best.
Can I ask how old you are? You’re talents as a writer are beyond my capacity but I am not a very good writer. I found this poem enthralling and held on to every word because I could totally relate. I think everyone’s been in good relationships before that are so passionate that they come to a crashing halt.
I read your profile and am impressed that you researched all you could about asperger’s syndrome. I have “bipolar disorder” and just found out last year about it and am still really confused about it. Once again you have inspired me to do something about trying to help myself get on track. Even though I am very high functioning I would like to be more knowledgeable of what the heck’s going on in my brain. Lol. I love kids, especially the outcasts. And would love to become a college professor one day so I can give back and help to teach them to express themselves through art and design. BTW I friended you on FB, I hope that’s ok.
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I titled it that because the relationship was hurtful, but I felt like I needed it. I’m 17 (18 in July)
I appreciate the comment. Words like these encourage me to keep pushing forward, no matter how hard the fight.
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Wow you’re only in high school? You have already made some amazing accomplishments. Are you going to go to a college or university?
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Very talented with the words!
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Thank you so much 🙂
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Anytime 🙂
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Beautiful..
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Thank you so much
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This reminds me of my son, who has aspects of Asperger’s and his former girlfriend’s breakup. It was really hard for him to understand why it happened and he still doesn’t like to talk about it.
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Common struggle for us, yes, but each story has it’s own unique qualities. I hope he’s found someone to talk to about it, and realize that it’s not “all his fault”, as many of us believe.
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Wow. Beautiful and haunting. The imagery is fantastic. Really feel your pain.
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Thanks so much Marisa. Glad you liked it. I didn’t think it to be haunting when I was writing it, so that’s new…
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Your sadness and words grips me every time.
By far one of your best work yet. 🙂
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Wow, thanks so much Charlie 🙂
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You welcome my friend. 🙂
You’ve always been a talented and great writer. 🙂 keep going and never stop. 🙂
P.S Got something new?
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Thanks so much Charlie 🙂
What do you mean by “new”
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My poem is up. 🙂
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Man, you don’t have to tell me. I’m always gonna read your work. 🙂
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🙂 🙂 You are amazing my friend. 🙂
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Thanks
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Nice work
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Thanks a lot 🙂
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Beautiful and heartbreaking
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Glad you liked it, Sheila. How have you been?
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Just call me WLP LP or Nyx Dev. I have been super busy with school and life. How are you buddy?
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Sorry 😦
I’ve been doing well. Interviewing a job, studying, writing…
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thats great Dev. I’m glad you are doing well 🙂
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Thanks LP. 🙂
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😉
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Reblogged this on By the Mighty Mumford and commented:
HARDSET TO WRITE…OPENING UP IS HARD…WE POETS KNOW!
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Thanks again Jonathan
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This is one of the best poems I’ve read in a long time. I’m so sad though reading it as your pain and sadness seeps out through your words 😦 hugs 💙
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One of the best of mine, or in general?
🙂 Love ya Summer
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One of the best in general 🙂 You’re really talented 👍
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Oh wow…thanks so much Summer. I really appreciate it. 🙂
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Hugs 💙 I know you have a lot of pain inside you. I hope for it to heal and better things to arrive in its place x
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You’re right, and they’re coming…slowly.
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I agree with Tenacity, keep on writing.
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Thanks a lot Beth 🙂
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Reblogged this on Creative Writing Reblogged.
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This is beautiful, sad, honest, disheartening and heartfelt all at the same time Devereaux. My heart hurts for you. Not for pity but the loss itself. I am sorry. You have such a gift though it is absolutely amazing my friend. Use it all to your advantage and you will come closer to what you want in your reality. Love you~
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Wow, thank you Tina. This is…this is really encouraging. You never fail to do that, even on my worst days, and I am grateful for that.
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Of course Devereaux😘 I’m grateful to learn from you!
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Learn from me? Lol nah
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Ummm yeah!
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But how? You’re an adult, I’m a kid 🙂
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That doesn’t mean I can’t leave m silly 😜
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I guess…
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Learn not leave. Stupid spell check 😉
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Spell check sucks sometimes. Like, spell check needs a spell check lol
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I know right??? LMAO!!!
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Good thing I learned to rely on my own spelling skills. Spell check sometimes has one too many drinks.
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LMAO! I know right???
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I’ll jump online and be like “sir, how many drinks have you had tonight?” LOL
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You’re too funny😃
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Ha ha I try
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