If you’re an old friend (or if you’re not, but identify as one), then thank you for impacting my life in the time span we knew each other. If not, then read it as you normally would…also, my posts this month have been on the melancholy side. I’m trying to change that, but when I put my pen to paper I just get sad feelings. I’m feeling better after last week’s depressed state, but nothing “happy”. If everyone leaves something (a word, a phrase, an image, whatever) positive in the comments, I could use that and turn it into a poem. Maybe that’ll help. In the meantime…
Chest burning
memories of the past keep occurring
I loved the way you laughed
I could listen to it all night
and like a comet you dashed
leaving me surprised
we used to talk everyday
but for some reason the message box got empty
and though I had plenty
more to say
I couldn’t muster the strength to ask
if you were okay
and is it okay
to drop off without saying why
I couldn’t do that to someone else
No, I wouldn’t even try
What did I say to you
Did you know what I never knew?
You played me for a fool
and now I’m begging you
for the truth
It haunts my days, keeps me sleepless at night
wondering if I did everything right
and am I right
to keep wondering
if you’re there
when you have no interest in me
I guess life isn’t fair
and I’ll pay my fare
but I want to get my money’s worth
don’t just leave me
like I have no worth
and it hurts
to be left alone
wondering what to say
when I pick up the phone
hoping not to say
whatever sent you on your way
Don’t forget me
that’s all I ask
from you,
Past
Excellent poetry…
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Thanks again 🙂
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Your poetry resonates with me. Hang in there ❤
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Thank you Cait 🙂
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Great post
Amazing
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Thanks for the read, and I’ll look into your blog
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HANG IN THERE AS HE HAS WITH YOU…YOU’RE ALL WORTH HOLDING ONTO!
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Thanks again Jonathan 🙂
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Beautifully written. Your thoughts flow easily. Never stifle that. It’s a very good release!
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Thanks so much Dorinda 🙂
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You’re welcome 🙂
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Sometimes such feelings can inspire tremendous work such as this. I just hope that you will be able to move into a much brighter place soon though.
I offer the words ‘To shake the cobwebs of apathy’ to you if they have even the slightest chance of offering any inspiration. If not, no problem.
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Wow, thanks Stuart. This was really encouraging.
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Devereaux, wish i could tell or say a positive note but alas i can suggest finding a smell that lifts your spirit. Orange 🍊 , grapefruit and lemon 🍋 always boost my step. Its those darn thoughts that bring me down. Also, last year i did a small 14×14 board of goals and words to look at to inspire. I did not achieve everything but those i did were encouraging. And sometimes depression has tentacles that grasp and cling, dont fight, but give in and see the experience as a microscope to untangle the knots. Your knowing it exists is a baby step in the battle. All the best and i hope my thoughts help, a tiny bit!! 💛🎶✌🏼
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I didnt make it clear, but i cut words and images out of magazines to give me a boost in a new direction. J
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Hmmm…smells. I never even thought of that. Thanks for the encouragement, and I love your writing.
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i usually hate when people tell me this, but lately i do seem to find comfort and some truth in this overused cliché – this too shall pass.
really. hold on.
p.s.: i really like your writing. ❤
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Thanks for stopping by 🙂
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Sometimes we focus too much on the negative impact of being on the autistic spectrum means. Don’t forget there are also many positive aspects as well. Takw a look at the long lists on this page and remind yourself that amny, if not all, of those things apply to you:
http://www.autismtopics.org/t12%20autism%20strengths.html
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And…I’ve made a load of spelling mistakes dammit, lol.
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Thanks Tim.
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This is how I feel at the moment too. Why is it that friends never seem to stay? I’ve asked myself this question too many times in my life. Makes me want to isolate myself and not have anyone around. Here’s your positive word. “Hope” we cannot go through life without it. Once we lose hope, all is lost forever.
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Thanks for the word, Michelle.
Hope you and the family are well.
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You’re welcome.
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Thank you so much Tina
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You’re welcome Dev😘
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Love is a winding journey of unknowns! Don’t give up!!
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Feeling like you need to ‘rush’ into a ‘happy’ place is enough to begin a new downward spiral. Look for it. Let it happen. Take your time. When you are melancholy you see things in other people that otherwise might have escaped you.
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